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Oct 10, 2009

Old Metal Road Block

This was written, over 10 years ago. I still think it's worth re-posting.


I sat on my bed one night and looked at the computer screen. I want to write something. But what do I write? I wanted to write something that had in sex. That is mainly my driving point, but as of late, they have ended up with happy endings. Instead of the end of one affair with someone that they liked, but had no intention of staying with.

I may have lost my interest in torrid little affairs. I even surprised myself when I finished "The Maccoys" on a loving note. I think that it is being 21, single, and not having one single date since I was 16. Since I have been down here, everyone is asking me if I was married. Why on earth should I be married at 21? Plus, if I was married, I would not be down here anyway.

I look back at the screen. I have nothing left to write. I have written about teenagers, incest times two, three different ways, swinging, masturbation, rape, speculation about someone else's sex life, sex at work, sex in school with a teacher, sex in a park, sex with friends who turned lovers, one boy and one girl, sex in the bathroom of a bar, and even one where the sex life of other people are brought up for discussion.

I was thinking of writing something about two gay men. I was of course was going to give it a happy ending. But I don't know if I could write it. The idea is novel, but the idea still gives me the slight creeps. I have gotten use to it, and it might even turn me on a bit, but it is still odd. Like the idea of having sex is great, but at times the idea, is seriously gross.

I have never had "sex" I've coupled. I've made love. Some times it looks like having sex has nothing to do with love. Oh, by the way, when I said that I did not have "sex" but made love. I meant that I did not have intercourse. We held, kissed, rubbed against each other, and got partly or fully naked. Before I wised up, I gave blow jobs, I know that the number does not matter, but I only did it twice, and it was over a year between both of them. The same thing goes for when I had anal sex. I am so tight that they did not got all the way in. In fact they got nowhere. They just parted me and continually bummed into me. For kisses, I have the same story. My first set was over a period of four weeks, but only on four different days. I also had the year gap before I was kissed again. Same person for two days that was a day apart. My last encounter with all of this was 5 years ago. Lucky me.

The only good thing that is coming out of all of this, is the fact that I won't by some chance get AIDS. After my last encounter, I realized how dumb I was being. So I told my self that as far as I was going to go from now on, was kissing and groping, and maybe some body kissing. You're probably thinking, what would happen if the guy did not know this and was ready to go all the way? Well I was thinking about that when I meet this guy at a concert, that the band "Sponge" was having at a music store in Manhattan. He was interested in me and I was certainly interested in him. We powed around for about two hours before the gig started, but when it was over he disappeared. I am pretty sure that if my friend was not there I would have kissed him in the line while we were waiting to get in. That way I would not have this slight regret.

He was quite adorable, even if he did drink. His name was Chase, and he worked for a hockey team. I think that he said that he was in the promotions department, and the name of the team was the "Buccaneers". I forget for which part of Florida it belonged. Anyway there was the real likelihood that I was going to end up in his hotel room that night. I got my hand on his butt. He told me to. He had this sticker, and he wanted it on his back pocket, so he asked me to put it on him. After I did, his friend asked me if I had liked doing that and I told him that I did, with a grin on my face. I even wrote a poem about him. But it was not the kind that you think that it was.

So what do I write? I need to write something. I might have to go into period costume. Meaning? I might have to go back into time. Now I am not talking about hundreds of years ago. It will be sometime this century. But then I may not. We will have to see. So until then I have to live through this time of inactivity in writing.

Day Dream

This story is brand new as of June 6th, '00 and was edited/updated on October 10th, 09.


I stood at the top of my street waiting for her to pick me up. I wasn't sure if it was going to be just a girl's night out, or if she would be bringing along her husband. I stood there waiting for about ten minutes looking up and down the street. I didn't even know why. I didn't know what her car looked liked but I kept looking for a blond lady driving a car, coming towards me. For where I lived, that was just as good as if I was looking for her car plate numbers. When I saw her I waved and she pulled up with a smile on her face and her hubby in the back seat. I smiled and said hello in a very 'happy glad to see you, let's party' voice and opened the door to the front seat. I slid in and closed the door before I turned towards her and she leaned over and kissed me on my cheek and I did the same. Then we drove off.

When the car stopped behind some backed up cars, she looked towards me and reached her hand out for my face. She isn't going to do that I thought. Then as her hand continued to reach for me, I thought. 'Could I do this? Kiss another girl?' I watched as she closer and held the back of my head.

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Girls Will Be Girls

(updated and corrected)

Lee sat on the steps in front of her school. She looked down at her watch again. It was 4:33 pm. She looked up the street once more but nothing was coming down it. Where was she? She asked herself for the tenth time. She got up and stretched. She hadn't been waiting for long. Just 40 minutes. She rubbed her ass through her skirt before dusting it off. Lee walked around in a circle for a while then looked at her watch again. It was five minutes later.

"OK... that's it, I'm going home," Lee told herself. She bent to pick up her book bag and lunch kit. Just then a gust of wind blew up her skirt. She almost flinched but then remembered that she wore underwear today. Besides, she told herself as she stood up no one was out here to see. She slung her bag over her shoulder and held her kit in her hand and started walking down the street.

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Sep 6, 2009

My Home

I know, I have a link for this story higher up. I just realized that I had the link twice. I was about to get rid of it when I realized that having a link that didn't go to Deviantart could be a good thing. If you don't have an account for that site you might run into problems.

So incase you do, this should be a better link for you. :)


“Carman, I couldn’t find those veggie chips that you said Louis likes. Are you sure of the brand you told me?” I asked as I dropped my keys into the wicker basket that my wife kept by the front door.

“What are you looking for?” she asked from the kitchen. I walked down the hall with what I had bought from the store. I turned left into the kitchen area and placed the bags on the long counter top.

“Let’s see,” I said as I pulled out the paper from my pocket. “I think it was ‘Demas’,” I said before actually seeing it. “Dantai’s,” I corrected myself. “It says Dantai’s here, but I couldn’t find it at the store,” I said as I held it out for her to look at, which was going to take awhile since she was stirring a pot that currently had her attention. She placed some green things in as she continued to stir. It could have been rosemary for all I knew or cared at that point.

“I’m going to take a bath,” I told her as I took off my tie. “Tell Louis that I’m sorry about the chips if he arrives while I’m in the shower,” I said as I stood there with my tie in hand. I waited for her to say something, but she just tasted another pot and kept her back to me. I shook my head and walked to the other side of the kitchen and up the stair to our bedroom and master bath.

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Sep 5, 2009

Inuyasha Story Update


Ya, it's been a while since I posted something.

I'm up to chapter 67 now for my Inuyasha story. I have about a page down now after looking at one line for like 2 weeks.

I'm also changing how I upload my chapters from now on because I'm starting college this week. On Thursday I go to my first class.

I'm going to be uploading one chapter for the week instead of three starting this week and right now I'm not even sure what day that will be.

I'll be uploading chapter 36 I think this Tuesday. This Tuesday is the only day that I know for sure I'll be uploading on.

I found a story that I kinda forgot about and will be posting here soon. Providing I don't fall into a study hole this upcoming week. *grin* *weakly*

Well, See ya.

Jul 24, 2009

Chapter 64

Hello People. *grin*

I have arrived at chapter 64. I'm narrowing in on the end. I may make my new dead line and have this completed by the time I start college. Wouldn't that be nice?

A few weeks ago, I just started re-writing a story of mine that I had grown beyond a bit. The re-write took me in a whole new direction. I've now ventured into sexual torture. I hint at most of it since it was in the past, but what makes it a really edgy story for me is the fact that it's an 'incest' story.

Don't hate me. *hands up to ward off blows* The good thing is.... well I killed the good thing buy doing something else. Or at least hinting at it. can rant on me now.

In other story writing news, I've come to realize that if I ever do another story for Fanfiction under Inuyasha, that I should Kagome's couple-hood away and in a separate story from anyone else's.

My popularity has taken a dive because of it. Hold on. Have I told you that I started to post my Inuyasha story over at yet? Sorry if I haven't. It's titled "Together". I know. I suck at names. Speaking of which I need to look up a name for someone knew how is just passing thought my story right now. I'm not even sure where I actually left off. :(

Ok, I left off at page 4 of chapter 64 and I'm giving Sango and her mate-to-be some air time. I have been short changing them. I think I may let them wonder around and talk to us for a bit about things going one at Sess' home and the upcoming annoucements. I'm so fare in the furture that you most likly will not remember me telling you all this. :) I hate giving away a story, but I don't think I'm giving away much here.

Well I should find those two names. I got to go now.

See ya next update. :)

Jun 19, 2009

I've Touched Inuyasha.

Yep, I read what I wrote of the last chapter I was on, and I added new lines. I might or might not add anything historical to it now. It is fairy tale after all. I'll just make up something add a few things to make it seem like it could have been real and even thrown in a few real names to make it even more so. But I'll put a note at the end of the chapter saying that, that is what I did for when or if they run into those names later in life.

I haven't officially ended that other story, but I have left it at a place that some may consider and ending of some kind. Now that I'm making myself think about it, I think that I'll consider it end of part one. I think that I'll do an over look of the rest of the time, then jump like 3 years. If I get that do, which doesn't sound hard, I'll be happy. I've been telling myself that I should do that for the Inuyasha story, but I seem to want to write a real story and just a lemon one. BTW lemon means sex and lime means sexy. I didn't come up with it, but I'm going with it.

I also have an ending to the Inuyasha story that I came up with months ago. I thought of turning it into a one shot and posting it, but so much of it relies on what I have in the main story that if I ever post it, it will have to be after the main story if finish and up unless I find some way to expanding on it and explain a few things. But I don't want to really do that either because I feel like I would be giving away parts of the story that I was building up to.

At this rate, I'll might just hold on to it until well after the other story is up and then post this to maybe get some interest in the main story again. Almost sounds like marking or advertising ha? :)

Well I'm on my way back to it now. I've started and I'm going to stick at it for a while. See ya.

Jun 16, 2009

My Current Stories

Hi ya.

Let's see. I think I'm working on the 59th chapter now. I know I said I think, it's because I stopped to wait for a book that I put on hold from the library. I wanted to throw in something humanly real. Having Inuyasha them come across some Japanese history.

I got the book, but I haven't got back the story yet. I'm sorry. *bowing*
When I was waiting for the book, I looked over a story of mine that I don't think I'll post because firstly I thought it was too out there. When I read again this last week, I just seemed bad to me and I started to 're-write' it. I didn't trash the old one. I'm just starting almost from scratch and threw the old plot out the window. I think I just kept the three names and two or three other things. But it's like looking at night and day with the two story lines.

I got a lot of it done to my surprise and it just ran with itself. I feel like I'm doing a lot of new things in this story that I haven't done before. Almost like I've moved on to a new stage of writing. But it could just be me writing the way I think this story is suppose to be and is turning out or how the story wants itself to be told. It's also a dark one. I mean I've made people mean in this one. The closet I've ever come to one like this is an old rape story that I remembered not enjoying writing that much. But I am liking this one for some reason.

I'm a bit surprised at the turns that this story is taking. I think that I'm almost at the end. I'm up to chapter 6 now. The first two chapters were short, but the last one was about 4 pages long. I may post this one over at a erotic story site to get some traffic for my own site. We'll see.

But once that is over, it's back to Japan for me and to start making some head way on the story once again. So far this story has lived through a one shot of "Death Note" a one shot of "Harry Potter" that turned into 3 chapters. I Personal request for a story from a friend of mine or it was just me wanting to write what he told with more details, I'm not sure, and now this story.

If anything, I have to end this before I start school so it won't end up being on the back burner for who knows how long. If I put it away for that long, I may not like what I come back to and burn the whole thing. The me now doesn't like that idea. I like the story a lot right now and I want it out there. If anything I want to post it for Lynnit to see it over

Well It's time for bed for me. I've stayed up watching Asian Films and it's now after 1am Seattle time.

See ya.

May 12, 2009

Chapter 58 Compleated.

Hey, I'm back.

I know.

I've been gone for a while...I've been writing.. or reading. :)

As you can see I'm still chugging along with my story. I took some time off to write two shorter ones.

One can be found over at

The newest one went up, as you can see, a week or so ago. Also, there was one that went up around the new year. I think I forgot to tell you about that one. Sorry.

The other one I did is hanging out over at deviantart. The name is "My Home". I did it for a site for pay. They haven't gotten back to me yet to let me know if they like it enough to pay to use it on their site. It's very sexy as you have guessed. :)

Would love some comments.

I'm working on chapter 59 and now my new goal for ending the story is 65'ish. Ya, hard to pin down a number.

Oh, here is a little nibble of this forever story.

A Peek by ~jemgirl on deviantART

See ya.